Saturday, December 10, 2011
Recent dreams; 911 theme
In many of my recent dreams, none of which I remember well enough to record, there is something that keeps happening. There is a disaster I witness. I call 911. And it doesn't work. And I keep trying. But can never get through. Like in one, I would dial 911, and the 9 would change to another number. I keep wondering why I have it. Almost like in my real life, I feel overwhelmed and like I need help and advise, but I just can't get it or find it. Which is true. But who knows. Clearly there is some feeling there that keeps coming out in the failed tried at calling 911.
Dream; Crazy dragon and espionage
There was a dream I was in one of the major big bookstores, that also had an electronic reader. Over the course of the dream, the books were all removed and the store changed, and I was told I couldn't read books there anymore. It was awful.
There was a dream that I climbed up into the top of my closet, which as a semi-finished basement room, has no roof and opens into the inner working of the house. In the dream, I actually got all the way up there, and discovered a secret exit out of the house, a small foot high opening. This was what always let the cold air in during the winter. My mom was showing me ways to escape. There was a cat who had come in that way, and had kittens. I found kittens in this secret part of the house. I tried to figure out how to escape if we were attacked, but the way to the opening was on the other side of a furnace, or the metal vents that go through the house I guess, and it was so hot it was steaming. So my mom told me I had to go down to the left (the opening was on the right) and go around the metal venting. I got down, and discovered that the finished portion of our basement was only half. There was the entire rest of the basement, unfinished, cut off from the rest of the home, secretly there.
I was also outside in one dream, flying over houses and practicing my mental flying skills. Because in a dream it's all about imagining the view from above the ground. If you can't, you can't fly. You have to see it in your minds eye to be successful, and that's the hard part. So I kept trying and was doing pretty well.
There was a dream with me and my sister Lee outside a big building, where we weren't supposed to be, but people inside would think we didn't know that and let us be. We couldn't see them from outside.
So I could fly.
There was also a segment where we were in a theatre. I don't remember who, or why, or what happened. I know I found some more powers that I have, but I can't remember what they were. Judging from the book I was reading the night before though, that I feel made an appearance in the dream, I believe I was able to shift my appearance into anything, human, animal, mist, etc.
In the last dream, I trusted these two men, and of course my sister. So the one I knew better took my sister, and I went with the brother, who I knew less but seemed to trust more. In order to get into the prince's castle, one had to offer themselves as a slave to his service. In order to even be trusted. These brothers had a mission and knew we needed to get in. My sister and the first brother first set it up. They fastened themselves in neck collars that then attached to this sort of portable lamp stand looking thing, but held them upright. It was purely for show and ceremonial... at this point. This was not the house of our leaders.
Some group came and took them away. Then it was my turn. I felt awful and helpless, but the brother with me whispered in my ear to trust him. And I did. The entire dream I always wondered if he was the kind of person you magically had to trust if he told you to, however in my own mind's mythology those people only have that ability if they actually are trustworthy. They can force you to trust them, but it doesn't work for them if they lie. But I never knew if he was that kind or not. I think I just trusted him and his character the regular way. So we fastened ourselves into the ceremonial collars. It was the same as my sister and hers, but up close I saw. First they attached around your neck, then to each other, then to the stand. Then you stood in the corner of this fancy red carpeted wooden hallway that took a step onto a bridge with windows and entered the castle. And we waited.
I still didn't know why, but I knew we had a reason for the good of everyone that we absolutely had to get into the castle, sort of as spies, but to help.
When the next group came, it was the prince himself. I immediately disliked him. He was young and overdressed and had white curly wigged hair. And he was clearly trying to play with the hearts of the many girls surrounding him. He was playing with someone's hair at the time. He was surrounded by officials too. Rich spoiled brat. I instantly disliked him and also feared him. What if he set his attentions on me, or tried to? The brother with me understood what I was feeling, apparently, and wrapped his arms around me and told me to trust him again, and not to worry. After that we kind of shifted to where I was slightly hiding behind the brother, and looking out over his shoulder at the prince. Because it felt a little safer on some instinctive level, although of course it wasn't.
The prince saw us and didn't say much, just grabbed us by the connecting bar and started pushing us into the castle. After the indoor bridge the palace opened up to the left with a wide five to seven step staircase. When he pushed us up that, I was pulled off my feet, too short to reach because the brother was taller than me. He wrapped his arms under my crossed arms and picked me up, to carry me up the stairs as he walked. He carried me down the hallway too. The prince was not exactly gentle. I was having a difficult time trusting the brother at this point, but at least he was taking care of me. And so far we weren't separated. And from all the other dreams last night, I knew I still had a lot of powers up my sleeve. Flying away among them.
When he dropped us off, I think we were supposed to wait with the ceremonial collars still on. I took it off, and he probably did too. The prince disappeared. I heard some noises and looked out a door to some huge cages. I mean, this was a huge area. Like a stable, but probably four stories high inside, with an open side on the right, and maybe a football field down to the left. I looked and saw inside the first three cages flying beasts, kind of like dinosaurs, but not quite. More like mythical flying creatures. I left the spot I was supposed to stay at and immediately went to them. I wanted to fly them. I was drawn to it. I headed to the cage, and saw girls inside tied up, but trying to tame the creatures while unable to move. I realized that this was not cruelty, it was the only way to gain the trust of the creatures, although it was dangerous. They were not horses. You couldn't tame them as you tame a horse. You had to earn their trust in other ways, and most importantly they had to relate to you. In the cages, they felt trapped. And so they would only trust riders who were also trapped. I was willing to do it if it meant I could ride one.
In the next cages there were horses. With girls trying to tame them, the usual horsy way. Then after those were lions and bears. I didn't feel too interested in those, but there were girls in there, one each taming their lion and bear. Different method from horses, but again, I didn't care enough to observe what it was. After that, the cages alternated. Some horses. Some flying creatures. Some other animals.
And at the end the cages turned ninety degrees and continued on farther around the corner of the palace. But that end corner cage was four times the size of all the others. And I knew that inside was a dragon. Suddenly my interest in the flying creatures was to the dragon what the horses had been to the flyers. I knew I wasn't supposed to be wandering around, but I hurried down to that cage. And found a young baby inside. He was beautiful. Not the regular appearance, but I'm afraid I can't remember it well. He was about the height of a man, and there was no one inside training the creature. I knew no one had been found for it yet. Because dragons were hard to train. The flyer and many of the other creatures were also deadly if you didn't do the needed tricks to relate to them. Or if you weren't the right person. But the dragon type of person was rarer to find, and harder to relate to.
I went to the cage, drawn, and when the dragon saw me, I tried singing to it in nonsensical words. You know, animals like the tone, but they can't understand what you are saying. Anyway, the dragon tried many times to blow fire at me and kill me. Blowing the fire out of the cage at me. It was scary. But it felt like... in real life I love parrots. And they generally like me. Sometimes people warn me that they are not very nice, and next thing you know they love me, and people are surprised, and in the next instant with no warning they bite me. I had it happen once and he almost took a chunk out of my thumb. It felt like, oh, I guess I don't have the touch after all. But I do because I still love you despite the fact you are just being you. But I don't. But I do? Anyway, felt that way with the dragon trying to kill me. I felt disappointed, clearly I wasn't right for it, but maybe it was just that I didn't know how? Maybe just the singing was wrong but I was right? I went back to the brother, who noticed where I had been the entire time.
When I came back, there were some horses... who in weird dreamland were the sizes of dogs and lying on the couches like dogs. Just two of them. I went to pet one, because I was good with horses, and the horse freaked out. While the dragon had not bonded with me, I had bonded with it in some way that made me more wild, had more fire in my eyes, that terrified the horse. The dragon had gotten in my blood.
When the prince came back, the brother requested to speak to him alone. As a character, I didn't know what was said. As that omnipresent dreamer of a dream, I did. So what happened was this. The brother went in with the prince and asked him for my hand in marriage. You see, since we had offered to serve the prince, we sort of belonged to him now, and it was his hand to give. The brother was asking for a few reasons. The main one for the brother was that the prince would never turn his attentions on a married woman, so it would protect me. But there was another reason, the one that would convince the prince. He explained that despite no permission, I had been drawn out to the animals, which generally meant I needed to train one, because it was a magic land, and the irresistible pull of it meant something if someone felt it. He then told the prince that I had gone down to see the dragon. Which got the prince's attention but meant little. Everyone wanted to see the dragon and be that special person. It didn't mean much by itself, although it meant a little because most people were too scared to even get that close. But then the brother told the prince about the horses terrified of me after they returned.
This got the prince's attention because it showed the dragon was in my blood, part of me now, which happened to view people. It had changed me in a way that couldn't be undone. And the prince was looking for someone to bond the dragon with and train it.
The reason the brother asked for my hand in marriage, at least the true reason that he told the prince, was that I would be furious. I would be angry and scared and horrified at this decision that I had no say in, that would affect the rest of my life. Both the brother and the prince knew enough about dragon training to know that this feeling was exactly what was needed to bond with the dragon. And just like the dragon I would attempt to flee, and when I couldn't, I would fight back. Just as a dragon would do. The prince consented.
They took me out near the dragon cage, and this is where they told me that the brother had asked for my hand in marriage and I was going to marry him. I tried to fly away, as my fleeing. But the brother knew I could do this and grabbed me before I could even get off the ground. He especially didn't want me revealing this to the prince or anyone else. And so then I got angry and started to yell and argue and lash out physically. The prince had opened the cage door, and in my anger I ended up falling inside the cage. Or maybe he pushed me. I don't know. I was still so furious that I didn't even care about the dragon. Not even when he came up and bit my arm, latching on. At which point I stopped moving. The dragon looked me in the eye, and tasted my blood. The prince explained outside the cage that by tasting my blood, the dragon could tell what I was feeling, from hormones, and would know that the way I felt at this time was the same as the way the dragon felt. When the dragon finally blew it's fire, it was again outside the cage, at the prince and the brother, and it was in defense of me as much as the dragon himself. We were bonded.
When I came out of the cage, they explained this to me, so that I understood why they had done what they did. I asked if now that it worked, if I could not marry him, and they said no, the dragon knew lies and would know. I actually had to marry the brother. And it was still as horrible as it seemed at first. I left.
When the brother found me, he again told me to trust him. He said that we still had our mission, and while he had thought I would be perfect for an animal, this was even more of an opportunity than he had first dreamed to hope for. I hated the idea of being married to him, because of course that mean sleeping with him, and I liked him, but not in that idea! And basically that's where the dream stopped. But I was able to get a little more from dozing after waking.
The prince explained to me later that the reason he played with girls was that it gave them the feeling needed to relate to the horses. He never slept with them. He told me that the feeling of fear and more than that, anger, of being in a situation one didn't want, made me relate to the dragon. He did play with my hair, and he said the fact it didn't make me feel crazy about him, but hate him more, made me perfect for the dragon. I begged again to not marry the brother, and he asked why not, because I did like him, and I trusted him enough to be a slave to the prince, which was true. I told him I couldn't imagine doing the married things with the brother. The prince then rubbed my hand and arm, put his hand on my hip, and got very close to my mouth, and I didn't fight him away, and he told me, see, all women if given time can be seduced. So don't worry about that. The brother will know what to do. You should be worried about his character more than the chemistry. The prince then said I was feeling what was needed for horses and got a little closer and more pushy than I liked, and it scared me and I screamed and fought him off, and he said, now the dragon will smell the fear and anger again on your blood, otherwise a second ago it would have killed you. Then he left me.
And yeah. The brother explained that we needed me, with my flying and other super skills, and the dragon, in order to save what we needed to save. He hadn't told me yet. But I did trust him, and know that he was good, and I did feel safe with him. And knew it was good to marry him, but it still made me furious I had no say in it.
There was a dream that I climbed up into the top of my closet, which as a semi-finished basement room, has no roof and opens into the inner working of the house. In the dream, I actually got all the way up there, and discovered a secret exit out of the house, a small foot high opening. This was what always let the cold air in during the winter. My mom was showing me ways to escape. There was a cat who had come in that way, and had kittens. I found kittens in this secret part of the house. I tried to figure out how to escape if we were attacked, but the way to the opening was on the other side of a furnace, or the metal vents that go through the house I guess, and it was so hot it was steaming. So my mom told me I had to go down to the left (the opening was on the right) and go around the metal venting. I got down, and discovered that the finished portion of our basement was only half. There was the entire rest of the basement, unfinished, cut off from the rest of the home, secretly there.
I was also outside in one dream, flying over houses and practicing my mental flying skills. Because in a dream it's all about imagining the view from above the ground. If you can't, you can't fly. You have to see it in your minds eye to be successful, and that's the hard part. So I kept trying and was doing pretty well.
There was a dream with me and my sister Lee outside a big building, where we weren't supposed to be, but people inside would think we didn't know that and let us be. We couldn't see them from outside.
So I could fly.
There was also a segment where we were in a theatre. I don't remember who, or why, or what happened. I know I found some more powers that I have, but I can't remember what they were. Judging from the book I was reading the night before though, that I feel made an appearance in the dream, I believe I was able to shift my appearance into anything, human, animal, mist, etc.
In the last dream, I trusted these two men, and of course my sister. So the one I knew better took my sister, and I went with the brother, who I knew less but seemed to trust more. In order to get into the prince's castle, one had to offer themselves as a slave to his service. In order to even be trusted. These brothers had a mission and knew we needed to get in. My sister and the first brother first set it up. They fastened themselves in neck collars that then attached to this sort of portable lamp stand looking thing, but held them upright. It was purely for show and ceremonial... at this point. This was not the house of our leaders.
Some group came and took them away. Then it was my turn. I felt awful and helpless, but the brother with me whispered in my ear to trust him. And I did. The entire dream I always wondered if he was the kind of person you magically had to trust if he told you to, however in my own mind's mythology those people only have that ability if they actually are trustworthy. They can force you to trust them, but it doesn't work for them if they lie. But I never knew if he was that kind or not. I think I just trusted him and his character the regular way. So we fastened ourselves into the ceremonial collars. It was the same as my sister and hers, but up close I saw. First they attached around your neck, then to each other, then to the stand. Then you stood in the corner of this fancy red carpeted wooden hallway that took a step onto a bridge with windows and entered the castle. And we waited.
I still didn't know why, but I knew we had a reason for the good of everyone that we absolutely had to get into the castle, sort of as spies, but to help.
When the next group came, it was the prince himself. I immediately disliked him. He was young and overdressed and had white curly wigged hair. And he was clearly trying to play with the hearts of the many girls surrounding him. He was playing with someone's hair at the time. He was surrounded by officials too. Rich spoiled brat. I instantly disliked him and also feared him. What if he set his attentions on me, or tried to? The brother with me understood what I was feeling, apparently, and wrapped his arms around me and told me to trust him again, and not to worry. After that we kind of shifted to where I was slightly hiding behind the brother, and looking out over his shoulder at the prince. Because it felt a little safer on some instinctive level, although of course it wasn't.
The prince saw us and didn't say much, just grabbed us by the connecting bar and started pushing us into the castle. After the indoor bridge the palace opened up to the left with a wide five to seven step staircase. When he pushed us up that, I was pulled off my feet, too short to reach because the brother was taller than me. He wrapped his arms under my crossed arms and picked me up, to carry me up the stairs as he walked. He carried me down the hallway too. The prince was not exactly gentle. I was having a difficult time trusting the brother at this point, but at least he was taking care of me. And so far we weren't separated. And from all the other dreams last night, I knew I still had a lot of powers up my sleeve. Flying away among them.
When he dropped us off, I think we were supposed to wait with the ceremonial collars still on. I took it off, and he probably did too. The prince disappeared. I heard some noises and looked out a door to some huge cages. I mean, this was a huge area. Like a stable, but probably four stories high inside, with an open side on the right, and maybe a football field down to the left. I looked and saw inside the first three cages flying beasts, kind of like dinosaurs, but not quite. More like mythical flying creatures. I left the spot I was supposed to stay at and immediately went to them. I wanted to fly them. I was drawn to it. I headed to the cage, and saw girls inside tied up, but trying to tame the creatures while unable to move. I realized that this was not cruelty, it was the only way to gain the trust of the creatures, although it was dangerous. They were not horses. You couldn't tame them as you tame a horse. You had to earn their trust in other ways, and most importantly they had to relate to you. In the cages, they felt trapped. And so they would only trust riders who were also trapped. I was willing to do it if it meant I could ride one.
In the next cages there were horses. With girls trying to tame them, the usual horsy way. Then after those were lions and bears. I didn't feel too interested in those, but there were girls in there, one each taming their lion and bear. Different method from horses, but again, I didn't care enough to observe what it was. After that, the cages alternated. Some horses. Some flying creatures. Some other animals.
And at the end the cages turned ninety degrees and continued on farther around the corner of the palace. But that end corner cage was four times the size of all the others. And I knew that inside was a dragon. Suddenly my interest in the flying creatures was to the dragon what the horses had been to the flyers. I knew I wasn't supposed to be wandering around, but I hurried down to that cage. And found a young baby inside. He was beautiful. Not the regular appearance, but I'm afraid I can't remember it well. He was about the height of a man, and there was no one inside training the creature. I knew no one had been found for it yet. Because dragons were hard to train. The flyer and many of the other creatures were also deadly if you didn't do the needed tricks to relate to them. Or if you weren't the right person. But the dragon type of person was rarer to find, and harder to relate to.
I went to the cage, drawn, and when the dragon saw me, I tried singing to it in nonsensical words. You know, animals like the tone, but they can't understand what you are saying. Anyway, the dragon tried many times to blow fire at me and kill me. Blowing the fire out of the cage at me. It was scary. But it felt like... in real life I love parrots. And they generally like me. Sometimes people warn me that they are not very nice, and next thing you know they love me, and people are surprised, and in the next instant with no warning they bite me. I had it happen once and he almost took a chunk out of my thumb. It felt like, oh, I guess I don't have the touch after all. But I do because I still love you despite the fact you are just being you. But I don't. But I do? Anyway, felt that way with the dragon trying to kill me. I felt disappointed, clearly I wasn't right for it, but maybe it was just that I didn't know how? Maybe just the singing was wrong but I was right? I went back to the brother, who noticed where I had been the entire time.
When I came back, there were some horses... who in weird dreamland were the sizes of dogs and lying on the couches like dogs. Just two of them. I went to pet one, because I was good with horses, and the horse freaked out. While the dragon had not bonded with me, I had bonded with it in some way that made me more wild, had more fire in my eyes, that terrified the horse. The dragon had gotten in my blood.
When the prince came back, the brother requested to speak to him alone. As a character, I didn't know what was said. As that omnipresent dreamer of a dream, I did. So what happened was this. The brother went in with the prince and asked him for my hand in marriage. You see, since we had offered to serve the prince, we sort of belonged to him now, and it was his hand to give. The brother was asking for a few reasons. The main one for the brother was that the prince would never turn his attentions on a married woman, so it would protect me. But there was another reason, the one that would convince the prince. He explained that despite no permission, I had been drawn out to the animals, which generally meant I needed to train one, because it was a magic land, and the irresistible pull of it meant something if someone felt it. He then told the prince that I had gone down to see the dragon. Which got the prince's attention but meant little. Everyone wanted to see the dragon and be that special person. It didn't mean much by itself, although it meant a little because most people were too scared to even get that close. But then the brother told the prince about the horses terrified of me after they returned.
This got the prince's attention because it showed the dragon was in my blood, part of me now, which happened to view people. It had changed me in a way that couldn't be undone. And the prince was looking for someone to bond the dragon with and train it.
The reason the brother asked for my hand in marriage, at least the true reason that he told the prince, was that I would be furious. I would be angry and scared and horrified at this decision that I had no say in, that would affect the rest of my life. Both the brother and the prince knew enough about dragon training to know that this feeling was exactly what was needed to bond with the dragon. And just like the dragon I would attempt to flee, and when I couldn't, I would fight back. Just as a dragon would do. The prince consented.
They took me out near the dragon cage, and this is where they told me that the brother had asked for my hand in marriage and I was going to marry him. I tried to fly away, as my fleeing. But the brother knew I could do this and grabbed me before I could even get off the ground. He especially didn't want me revealing this to the prince or anyone else. And so then I got angry and started to yell and argue and lash out physically. The prince had opened the cage door, and in my anger I ended up falling inside the cage. Or maybe he pushed me. I don't know. I was still so furious that I didn't even care about the dragon. Not even when he came up and bit my arm, latching on. At which point I stopped moving. The dragon looked me in the eye, and tasted my blood. The prince explained outside the cage that by tasting my blood, the dragon could tell what I was feeling, from hormones, and would know that the way I felt at this time was the same as the way the dragon felt. When the dragon finally blew it's fire, it was again outside the cage, at the prince and the brother, and it was in defense of me as much as the dragon himself. We were bonded.
When I came out of the cage, they explained this to me, so that I understood why they had done what they did. I asked if now that it worked, if I could not marry him, and they said no, the dragon knew lies and would know. I actually had to marry the brother. And it was still as horrible as it seemed at first. I left.
When the brother found me, he again told me to trust him. He said that we still had our mission, and while he had thought I would be perfect for an animal, this was even more of an opportunity than he had first dreamed to hope for. I hated the idea of being married to him, because of course that mean sleeping with him, and I liked him, but not in that idea! And basically that's where the dream stopped. But I was able to get a little more from dozing after waking.
The prince explained to me later that the reason he played with girls was that it gave them the feeling needed to relate to the horses. He never slept with them. He told me that the feeling of fear and more than that, anger, of being in a situation one didn't want, made me relate to the dragon. He did play with my hair, and he said the fact it didn't make me feel crazy about him, but hate him more, made me perfect for the dragon. I begged again to not marry the brother, and he asked why not, because I did like him, and I trusted him enough to be a slave to the prince, which was true. I told him I couldn't imagine doing the married things with the brother. The prince then rubbed my hand and arm, put his hand on my hip, and got very close to my mouth, and I didn't fight him away, and he told me, see, all women if given time can be seduced. So don't worry about that. The brother will know what to do. You should be worried about his character more than the chemistry. The prince then said I was feeling what was needed for horses and got a little closer and more pushy than I liked, and it scared me and I screamed and fought him off, and he said, now the dragon will smell the fear and anger again on your blood, otherwise a second ago it would have killed you. Then he left me.
And yeah. The brother explained that we needed me, with my flying and other super skills, and the dragon, in order to save what we needed to save. He hadn't told me yet. But I did trust him, and know that he was good, and I did feel safe with him. And knew it was good to marry him, but it still made me furious I had no say in it.
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